Another Year In The Blink Of An Eye

Another Year In The Blink Of An Eye

It happened again.  While I was busy making other plans, life happened.  My kids grew up a lot more. I now have a 7th grader and an 8th grader.  That's right, two kids in middle school.  Holy Shit.  I just read a post for 2005 about my 3 year old daughter falling in love with "The Wizard of Oz."  What struck me the hardest about it was the fact that I don't remember it...at all.  When we are in it, deep in the moment, documenting it, taking photos of it with our phones, we just know that we'll remember this thing forever.  But, we don't.  

Here's what I do remember.  I remember how it felt.  How having a toddler and a baby was the most exhausting, isolating time of my life.  I remember feeling a love for two tiny humans that was still so new and unfolding.  I'm not tired anymore.  Not like that.  And, the love I feel for my kids is woven into every fiber of my being now.  I'm really glad I blogged about those first several years of parenthood with some regularity.  It's fun to peak back every now and then to remind myself of those moments that seemed like everything, but were really just small pieces of what has now come to be. 

Here we are, the first week of summer vacation, 2016.  Dad's out of town and I am doing my best to strike that balance between getting out and doing stuff, and chilling at home.  My middle schoolers need lots of both.  Middle schoolers?  Did I mention that I have TWO KIDS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL?  I did?  Oh.  

Lastly, I just want to put this out there... I am gonna write more.  Yeah, yeah, I've said that before.  But, this time I mean it?  I want to mark stuff down so that 10 years from now, when my kids are adults and no longer living in my home I can look back and say, "Wow.  I don't remember that.  But, I do remember how it felt to have 2 middle schoolers in the house.  And, man was it fun."